Wednesday, November 20, 2013

{{my heart is breaking}}

About 3 weeks ago my dad was taken to the hospital for what seemed like a simple procedure. None of us knew that when they wheeled him back our lives would never be the same again.

Just a little over 17 months ago my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 esophageal cancer. He has been fighting and taking chemo this whole time. He looked so good. Ya, he had lost some weight, but he needed to anyway. And the chemo never once made him sick. We were ecstatic! Then they discovered some fluid around his lungs that needed to be drained off. They wanted to make sure it was non cancerous. Off they went to the hospital to have it done.

When they drained the fluid off my dads lungs they inadvertently opened the hole in his esophagus that was formed by the cancer. In the process they also collapsed his lung. Fast forward a week... He developed septicemia and his lung was destroyed. He was admitted to ICU while they tried to figure out what was wrong. Fast forward another week... We just found out that the antibiotics are not helping the infection and that the cancer has spread to his brain.

My heart is breaking for all of us. My dad was doing so good and then went downhill very fast. He was transported to hospice yesterday and we are just spending as much time with him as God allows.

I am very thankful that God has given us this extra time with him. To see him and to love on him. We are truly blessed!

If it weren't for my super sweet husband who has been my shoulder to cry on and my rock through the rough day and my knowledge that God is here with us all, I don't think I could have gotten out of bed most days.

I have also found that keeping me busy and occupied (mainly Pinterest) helps keep my spirits up so I will be by to post all the super awesome things I found and the crafts I have been working on.

Hope you all have a blessed Wednesday!